Its been a long time since i've even thought about writing in this journal...but i figured its about time to start..

Ive been here a few days, and its absolutely beautiful. The temperature is amazing, the scenery amazing..even the fact that i could walk out side my apartment and see some ducks lounging in my back yard is amazing.

The first few minutes of being alone was kind of hard, i almost cried..but i promised myself this life, here in Santa Cruz is a new beginning..no more tears over amanda, no more tears about my past life is now a future.. So Hello Future, i guess we are living together for now on.

My First day at school was a hard adjustment, i woke up at 8:30 and i had class at 10. I figured i have time to shower and eat a bagel..well i was wrong i walked over to the bus around 9:16, and my luck i saw the bus drive away as i got there. great. Then i made the genius decision to drive to campus. get there, parking permit took 20 mins to get...already 10mins late. then it turns out the only permit i could get was like a mile away from my class, defeated the purpose of driving in the first place. Then i get to the College where my class is at..wander around for 15mins...finally find it. 45mins late. Then the teacher lets us out early, this is great gives me time to get to my next class...across the campus...grr.. SO i look for bus, cant find one...disicide i have time to take a hike through the woods to get to the next College...Well, so i do that, and it was really pretty, and the smell was really relaxing i really just wanted to sit down and watch nature do its thing...but i needed to find my way through the woods. Anyway, i get out of them and i find my self at Kresge College...anyone want to take a guess how far away that is from Merrill College? ...i think about a mile. So then i get annoyed and figure i should just take a bus, fucking bus' i get on the bus and the damn thing doesnt have a stop at merrill if you are going from West to East..........LUCKLY some girl helped me out she got off the bus with me and walked with me to Crown College (next to Merrill) and i walked the rest of the way. SO, now ive sat through about 10mins of Music/Political Protest, and now im about to sit through Feminist Theories...let me tell you, IM STARVED AS HELL at this point so i find the dinning hall and pig out....i havnt eaten a good meal in days, let me tell you I Ate a Salad, a Bowl of chips and 3 rice Crispy treats.. After My Next Class i went to Another dinning hall and ate Two Tacos, an apple a Chicken Breast, Some rice, 3 cups of Strawberry Lemonade, and A Cone of Vanilla Yogurt. I LOVE FREE FOOD! haha, i think thats the most amazing hting...My mom said "well denis maybe you can gain that wieght you've been wanting to gain" ...yeah, thats not going to happen with all the walking ive been doing i can get enough in my stomach to fuel me!

i tend to see at least on dear a day. will this keep the doctor away? or do i need to find a palm tree to stand next to?

Other Than school ive been hanging out With Sara and Kelly Every day.. They live down town, which is less that a mile away from me...so sometime i jsut walk, parking is a bitch. They are really cool, and they really have made this move alot easier on me then if i had to do this alone. I made them salsa yesterday and we pretty much ate the whole damn bowl. I love that they love spicy food!

The past 3 days ive check my mail and i keep getting fucking letters for Suk K. Song and her room mate Dongyoung Noh....Sucky Song...Dong, young, NOW! ...fucking azns...

Lisa Called me today, that made me happy... It always does, its cool that i have a friend across the world who actually cares about me too.

...i try not to think about amanda at all anymore...i accidently brought a picture of her..and i shoved it in a book..hopefull i wont see it again, i hate looking at her..it makes me sad...

Anyway, im gonna finish putting my apartment together.. I've been procrastinating on putting all the posters up, tooo much work..plus i have no clue where i want them all to go. =/

PEACE
Joseph